hmm...my big day...

seriously, wats going on around me??
u noe i was all fine like wine, with very little things to worry about , where i noe that all of it will be solved soon or later i mean really i dont like to worry over small things..i would put all of it aside and concerntrate on something which i like..whch is interesting..

well, on my birthday my frens celebrated a 'surprise' birthday party for me..it was a blast i must say..i like it so much..i mean the amount of afford my frens put was for just so sincere..so nice of them..really very chwit of them lah..
anyway yea..the real blast was prashan coming over for my birthday. i was a little surprised despite everthing..hehe!! and yea i was a little annoyed , y da hell was he there??
did he really want to come or they made him come..a question i yet to answer.
when i asked my frens about it , they said he was sincere but when i ask him about it, he said he came to my place just cuz he came down to kl and that when thry called him he happened to be free . So, now u tell me , its ok to feel annoyed rite..anyway..

It all went well, they MADE prashan sing a song..and well he did. He sang devathati kanden song and followed by uyire song. It was really very nice ..He really got a beautiful voice ..haiz..
and then matthew sang a song..Joel was laughing behind him when he was singing.well the poor fella was having sore throat he and was ill, so do the maths on how WELL he would've sang. The thought that counts..Lets just think like that k. Prashan went back home early that day. he was talking with me and rekha all nite long till i had to ask him to pause at 5.30.
earlier that day i was talking to joel over da phone, i didnt realise that i was talking to him for such a long time cuz when i came out they all gave me the look and prashan asked me, to whom i was talking too . When i told him it was joel he didnt believe. He really thought it was my bf-well hell no it cant be cuz i have no bf i told him, he didnt want to believe..i just laughed about it and totally ignored that question ..

Anyway after my birthday , prashan started calling and messaging me very often. He used to message and call me every now and then but not this often. Thats very not normal not for prashan to me though..and he kept on asking me who is my bf..and well when i told him i dont have any he just laugh about it and said that i shouldnt insult him by not having one..(i've got no comment on that except for a fact that he is just plain dumb!)
and yea..before i forget he is talking a lot bout my sweet , pretty , beautiful course mates..hmmm...lets not go there...at least not now k..


I'll be back soon !

p.s. i wanted to write bout something else but ended up writting about something else..seriously this not wat i wanted to write about..for da time being i shall find my words on wat i really wanted to write about..

good day turned bad

Everything was normal and nice in da begining. I really thought i was another beautiful day..
well nice early start , but i was late was da bus though.. but i was not da only one who was late.. i can always count on pavi for that ..hehe !
it was very very nice..i listened to my fav songs on da way 2 school.. had nice talk with my frens... later that day Mr.Gopi asked us to do something for da mother's day celebration in school. All of us agreed to do a choir. So we planned to sing kau ilham ku.. it all went very well. we practiced a lot ..it was really very nice.. with joel playing da piano and mathew with da drums..itwas really damn nice ...until a good fren of mine accidentally told another fren about something i shared with him. it was involving the other fren and she got pissed... when i heard about it i was totally really very angry..
The gal didnt actually took it very seriously but the way my good fren and another fren came and told me was very very..haiz..i dunno..they exaggerated it a lot!
so when i confronted da gal whom he told ,she said she was ok with it but was giving me hints on y must i always tell him everything that goes around me..and that certain things have 2 kept within ourselves and all..it was very normal and i said sorry and all...there was anthoer fren who is the one who came and told me with him i said t the gal knowing it , who also told him about the matter. so playfully i said i wasnt the one who told him first about it..but in reality i was da
one..pls highlight the point PLAYFULLY ! She took it seriously and asked me y do i always do such things to her..and i told it was a joke and asked her not to take it seriously..
she ignored me and her voice tone was raising...until to a point i had to stop her and asked her wats wrong..and thats when i noticed her eyes were glassy..all of da sudden i was so angry ! i just dunno y..i walked to the other gal whom we talked about and told her that everthing was cuz of me and has got nothing to do with the one.. and da boy, who is my fren who wants to set things out staright.. but i didnt bother..i just ignored his calling and walked past him to the toilet.
he was there when i came back near da basketball court ..he tried to talk but i just ignored..so many frens of mine apparoched me noticing my sudden change in behaviour but i ignored almost all of them..i was so irritated with all of them that i didnt hear wat they were saying..
and when i saw da gal whom i talked about i just hugged her i did da most embarassing thing..i cried..i said sorry many times..
and really till now i just dont noe y i cried ...i feel so stupid..a couple of my frens tried to calm me down..and da boy continued trying to talk to me but again i didnt bother..
later that day we were asked to sit under da sun so i had 2 borrow pavi's shawl to cover my head..it was so hot..again he tried talking to but i ignored...
so after a while he went and sat somewhere else..
due to some tecnical error our choir didn't turn out well..after da programme we all went back 2 class..they were taking pictures and they asked me 2 join in but since i was so pissed again i didnt bother..i couldnt find my phone at that time..that made da situation even worse..i went back home without even saying bye 2 anyone..but one two of my frens came and said bye to me ..thats not all, they advised me not to get pissed over small issues..the thing is ..i noe its right and its very stupid.. but till now i just dunno y i cried..it is so malu-fying..haiz..
he called me when i was back home..and i didnt talk much 2him over da phone..but he was being very sweet and very nice..he talked to my housemates and asked them 2 try 2 make me laugh..
after a long chat (where he did most of the talking) he finally ended da call..
when i was all ok and cool i messsaged him telling him everything on wat had happened..and i didnt get any reply frm him for that msg..so i sent another one asking him if he got da msg i sent earlier..he said he did..and i asked him y didnt u reply that msg then and the answer i got for it was..i am not bothered !!!!!!!!!!!!!
that was so pissing off...
and well after that i did wat i do da best..post a shout out in facebook and msn saying that i m pissed and tried 2 sleep ..but ..well..it didnt really work..
when i called him da next day and asked him if he would like 2 join me and my fren for a movie he simply said no and cancelled da call....haiz...
i noe all in all it was my fault actually...its cuz of me and only me ..
y da hell do i have 2 tell da world on wat happened around da world...i should've just kept quite..
da truth thing this is not da first time..i share with him so many things and at times he acciedentally slips one or two things out and everybody will haunt me..
so many ppl have asked me about y i have 2 tell him everything..n seriously till now i m still finding for an answer..sounds stupid rite...damn it..i noe ! wat to do..somethings are best to left unexplained rite..this is one of such things..but i need a damn answer for it !

p.s. i m sorry buddy ..