Everything was normal and nice in da begining. I really thought i was another beautiful day..
well nice early start , but i was late was da bus though.. but i was not da only one who was late.. i can always count on pavi for that ..hehe !
it was very very nice..i listened to my fav songs on da way 2 school.. had nice talk with my frens... later that day Mr.Gopi asked us to do something for da mother's day celebration in school. All of us agreed to do a choir. So we planned to sing kau ilham ku.. it all went very well. we practiced a lot ..it was really very nice.. with joel playing da piano and mathew with da drums..itwas really damn nice ...until a good fren of mine accidentally told another fren about something i shared with him. it was involving the other fren and she got pissed... when i heard about it i was totally really very angry..
The gal didnt actually took it very seriously but the way my good fren and another fren came and told me was very very..haiz..i dunno..they exaggerated it a lot!
so when i confronted da gal whom he told ,she said she was ok with it but was giving me hints on y must i always tell him everything that goes around me..and that certain things have 2 kept within ourselves and all..it was very normal and i said sorry and all...there was anthoer fren who is the one who came and told me with him i said t the gal knowing it , who also told him about the matter. so playfully i said i wasnt the one who told him first about it..but in reality i was da
one..pls highlight the point PLAYFULLY ! She took it seriously and asked me y do i always do such things to her..and i told it was a joke and asked her not to take it seriously..
she ignored me and her voice tone was raising...until to a point i had to stop her and asked her wats wrong..and thats when i noticed her eyes were glassy..all of da sudden i was so angry ! i just dunno y..i walked to the other gal whom we talked about and told her that everthing was cuz of me and has got nothing to do with the one.. and da boy, who is my fren who wants to set things out staright.. but i didnt bother..i just ignored his calling and walked past him to the toilet.
he was there when i came back near da basketball court ..he tried to talk but i just ignored..so many frens of mine apparoched me noticing my sudden change in behaviour but i ignored almost all of them..i was so irritated with all of them that i didnt hear wat they were saying..
and when i saw da gal whom i talked about i just hugged her i did da most embarassing thing..i cried..i said sorry many times..
and really till now i just dont noe y i cried ...i feel so stupid..a couple of my frens tried to calm me down..and da boy continued trying to talk to me but again i didnt bother..
later that day we were asked to sit under da sun so i had 2 borrow pavi's shawl to cover my head..it was so hot..again he tried talking to but i ignored...
so after a while he went and sat somewhere else..
due to some tecnical error our choir didn't turn out well..after da programme we all went back 2 class..they were taking pictures and they asked me 2 join in but since i was so pissed again i didnt bother..i couldnt find my phone at that time..that made da situation even worse..i went back home without even saying bye 2 anyone..but one two of my frens came and said bye to me ..thats not all, they advised me not to get pissed over small issues..the thing is ..i noe its right and its very stupid.. but till now i just dunno y i cried..it is so malu-fying..haiz..
he called me when i was back home..and i didnt talk much 2him over da phone..but he was being very sweet and very nice..he talked to my housemates and asked them 2 try 2 make me laugh..
after a long chat (where he did most of the talking) he finally ended da call..
when i was all ok and cool i messsaged him telling him everything on wat had happened..and i didnt get any reply frm him for that msg..so i sent another one asking him if he got da msg i sent earlier..he said he did..and i asked him y didnt u reply that msg then and the answer i got for it was..i am not bothered !!!!!!!!!!!!!
that was so pissing off...
and well after that i did wat i do da best..post a shout out in facebook and msn saying that i m pissed and tried 2 sleep ..but ..well..it didnt really work..
when i called him da next day and asked him if he would like 2 join me and my fren for a movie he simply said no and cancelled da call....haiz...
i noe all in all it was my fault actually...its cuz of me and only me ..
y da hell do i have 2 tell da world on wat happened around da world...i should've just kept quite..
da truth thing this is not da first time..i share with him so many things and at times he acciedentally slips one or two things out and everybody will haunt me..
so many ppl have asked me about y i have 2 tell him everything..n seriously till now i m still finding for an answer..sounds stupid rite...damn it..i noe ! wat to do..somethings are best to left unexplained rite..this is one of such things..but i need a damn answer for it !
p.s. i m sorry buddy ..
