I m feelin’ very down. I was all fine at one moment and suddenly, I m feelin’ so down. A few question popped on my head from yesterday’s convo with a fren of mine who said we all need a best fren. He said dont ever loose them and treasure them for life. Do I have a fren like that? Will anyone think of me like that ? I am just regular person with nothing special about me at all. I laugh stupidly, I m not very bright, not beautiful and really I m so not the ‘one of a kind sort of a person’. I m just a very normal, very plain and a very very boring person. He also did mention about love, and yes I hate when anyone talks about it. I don’t have much to say. I’ve never ever fallen in love and don’t have the slightest idea of what love is all about. Yes, I have watched millions of movies and read even more books than that but nothing is like experiencing it for real right. I don’t want to just experience and be done with it. I want to also treasure the relationship for life. I am not getting any younger and I will not be able to pause and return back in time to get back wat I missed. But at the moment I feel like my life is boring. I am always the one who would fall in the ‘she wouldn’t know about it’ category’. What is going to happen to me? Is that all about me? Again, nothing special, nothing extraordinary? What the hell am I suppose to do ? I don’t want to be alone…
And yes, it seems like every time I get a little close to someone, there will be somebody who wouldn’t like it. Why is that so? They will bug about it till I m not very close to that person anymore ..again..Y is that so? Y?y?y?
